Am I Too Sad ?

I feel so down and so sad . But I don't know how to control it . I want to cry . But I want to be strong . Please , I don't want to love him like this , It's too much . My heart is always told me that I can't let him go . Am I too much to love him ? I always think if I keep feel this way , How if he is not mine anymore ? How if he not have the same feeling what I am feel about him ? What will I do ? Who will I ask for help ? I must be strong . Maybe I willl try . Sorry , sayang . I am just a girl . I don't know how you feel ? And , sometimes I just want to test you . What will you do if  I do that and this . Sometimes I thinking , must I do what you just do , If I am jealous . Must I mad at you ? Must I ?